Five Things I’ve Learnt so far – Part 3

Lesson number three – It’s not like the movies. By that, I mean that the way that death and dying is depicted in the media, TV and films is far from reality (from what I’ve seen, anyway). A bit of background on my Mum’s diagnosis – she had breast cancer, six rounds of chemo andContinue reading “Five Things I’ve Learnt so far – Part 3”

Five Things I’ve Learnt so far – Part 2

Lesson number two – it is shocking how rapidly the body can change and deteriorate. At the start of treatment, everything was positive for Mum. The treatment plan made sense, the likely success rate was high, and Mum’s fatigue had started to dissipate. She’d had her diagnosis and treatment plan, so she wasn’t constantly worriedContinue reading “Five Things I’ve Learnt so far – Part 2”

Five Things I’ve Learnt so far – Part 1

Part 1 of a little series of posts about what I’ve learnt throughout my journey with Mum’s cancer, her death, and my grief. Lesson number one – Cancer is confusing and unfair. Mum’s diagnosis wasn’t straightforward. She was diagnosed in December 2016. February 2015, she’d had a routine mammogram which picked up a grey mass/areaContinue reading “Five Things I’ve Learnt so far – Part 1”

Self Comfort and Care

There are things that bring me comfort and remind me of my Mum in sad times. When I’m having a bad day (or a good one), I can let myself listen, read, experience, and share these things that help me feel better. Listening to music that reminds me of her. I made a playlist onContinue reading “Self Comfort and Care”

#socialdistancing

The idea of social distancing is to distance yourself from those around you to lessen the chance of spreading this awful virus. It is there to protect one another and slow the infection rate, and therefore take some burden off the shoulders of all NHS staff, emergency service workers and carers. As I mentioned inContinue reading “#socialdistancing”

Togetherness

I’ve seen so many inspirational and intuitive posts recently. People have been posting about being “together” in this pandemic, as much as people are isolated, there’s a sense of togetherness and community. People are doing things for one another, sharing appreciation for NHS and emergency service workers, and most people who can stay at homeContinue reading “Togetherness”

Mother’s Day

Mum died eight days before Mother’s Day 2018. Today is my third Mother’s Day without her. I know there are people who have lost their mums and view Mother’s Day with apprehension or dread. For me, it’s turned into a day that just happens. I’m no more or less sad today, it’s another day thatContinue reading “Mother’s Day”

The Weight of it All

Something I want to address is the weight that is placed on you through seeing someone you love die. For me it was a constant state of ambivalence throughout treatment, illness, and death. When my Mum was diagnosed with cancer, I didn’t cry. I can’t remember feeling anything at all at the moment she toldContinue reading “The Weight of it All”

Being Motherless

Sorry I’ve been less active the past few days, I’ve had job interviews, visited family, and it’s been Sam’s birthday too! I wanted to write something about being and feeling motherless, especially with Mothers’ Day on the horizon. Mothers’ Day was just eight days after my Mum passed away and the day after Sam’s birthdayContinue reading “Being Motherless”

Two Years On

I wasn’t sure if I wanted to write anything to mark this occasion. To be honest, last week I hadn’t really realised the time of year it was and what that meant. Tuesday 3rd March 2020 marked two years since my Mum passed away. I had been thinking about what I could write but hadContinue reading “Two Years On”