Five Things I’ve Learnt so far – Part 1

Part 1 of a little series of posts about what I’ve learnt throughout my journey with Mum’s cancer, her death, and my grief. Lesson number one – Cancer is confusing and unfair. Mum’s diagnosis wasn’t straightforward. She was diagnosed in December 2016. February 2015, she’d had a routine mammogram which picked up a grey mass/areaContinue reading “Five Things I’ve Learnt so far – Part 1”

Self Comfort and Care

There are things that bring me comfort and remind me of my Mum in sad times. When I’m having a bad day (or a good one), I can let myself listen, read, experience, and share these things that help me feel better. Listening to music that reminds me of her. I made a playlist onContinue reading “Self Comfort and Care”

#socialdistancing

The idea of social distancing is to distance yourself from those around you to lessen the chance of spreading this awful virus. It is there to protect one another and slow the infection rate, and therefore take some burden off the shoulders of all NHS staff, emergency service workers and carers. As I mentioned inContinue reading “#socialdistancing”

Togetherness

I’ve seen so many inspirational and intuitive posts recently. People have been posting about being “together” in this pandemic, as much as people are isolated, there’s a sense of togetherness and community. People are doing things for one another, sharing appreciation for NHS and emergency service workers, and most people who can stay at homeContinue reading “Togetherness”

Current Events

Due to the current global pandemic (Covid-19), there’s a lot of uncertainty and confusion within society at the moment. At work I’ve been reassuring the parents of the children who attend my nursery. My colleagues and I have consoled one another as well, because life still happens regardless of the situation which is beyond allContinue reading “Current Events”

The Weight of it All

Something I want to address is the weight that is placed on you through seeing someone you love die. For me it was a constant state of ambivalence throughout treatment, illness, and death. When my Mum was diagnosed with cancer, I didn’t cry. I can’t remember feeling anything at all at the moment she toldContinue reading “The Weight of it All”

Being Motherless

Sorry I’ve been less active the past few days, I’ve had job interviews, visited family, and it’s been Sam’s birthday too! I wanted to write something about being and feeling motherless, especially with Mothers’ Day on the horizon. Mothers’ Day was just eight days after my Mum passed away and the day after Sam’s birthdayContinue reading “Being Motherless”

Two Years On

I wasn’t sure if I wanted to write anything to mark this occasion. To be honest, last week I hadn’t really realised the time of year it was and what that meant. Tuesday 3rd March 2020 marked two years since my Mum passed away. I had been thinking about what I could write but hadContinue reading “Two Years On”

Mum’s Final Words

This is what Mum wrote as her final words to be read at her funeral. Today marks two years from the day she died. “Mum – because of you, I became the woman I was, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for this. Because of you I have the most wonderfulContinue reading “Mum’s Final Words”

James’ Tribute

Here is James’ tribute written for Mum “There isn’t really much left to say about Mum. Both Grandma and Rosie’s tributes describe her warmth and loving nature perfectly. I am so lucky to still have three strong, intelligent and fiery women to guide me through life. Mum inherited Grandma’s wicked sense of humour, her hardworkingContinue reading “James’ Tribute”